I have made some pretty stupid mistakes in my lifetime but there is nothing I can do about them now. So I just have to sit and suffer everyday with the choices I made. When I was 15 year old I met BJ and he was the guy of my dreams. He was the perfect mix of bad boy but nothing too serious just a trouble maker. We started hanging out during the summer and I would miss curfew and sneak out just to spend time with him. It was young love and he was “the one.” When school resumed in the fall, he transferred to my school and everything was perfect. I daydreamed all of the time about our future together and how wonderful everything would be. Then one day out of no where he meets me in our usual spot after school and asks me to walk with him. We got a few blocks down, and he just blurts out that he didn’t want to be in a relationship with me anymore. He said that he was young and wanted to have the freedom to make new friends and date other girls if he wanted to. I was destroyed and it seemed like all he cared about was hooking up with other girls. He didn’t shed a single tear while I stood there crying a river to him, begging him not to end us like that. I stayed home from school for the rest of the week because I couldn’t even pull myself out of bed. When I went back to school a bunch of people kept asking me if I knew that BJ and this girl named Lana were going out. Of course I didn’t and when I saw the two of them holding hands in the hallway, I felt the life leave my body. This was my guy holding hands with some other girl. I had loved and supported him through a bunch of stuff in our 9 months together and I was the one who encouraged him to transfer to my school instead of whatever school the district was going to stick him in. I hated him and Lana.
About a month after BJ and Lana started going out, he starts texting me asking how I’m doing and calling me at random times to say that he was just checking in. Then he told me he missed me and that he wasn’t sure what he wanted anymore. One night BJ came over my house and told me that he had broken up with Lana and wanted to give us another try. He said that he had missed his true love. That was the first night that BJ ever spent the night and it was amazing. We started sneaking around and spending the night together whenever we could. Lana tried to cause a bunch of drama at school with me but I already had what I wanted so there was no reason to fight her. She was just mad that I had won, she tried to steal my man and lost. One weekend, I was with my cousin and a few friends getting dresses for our Spring formal. I had been sick with a flu the past week and still didn’t feel good. While we were at the mall I started to feel awful like I was going to pass out. I got the chills and had horrible stomach pains. My cousin thought something was seriously wrong, so she called my mom to come get me. My mom drove me to the emergency room. They thought I might have appendicitis or something, but they had to do some other tests first. One of the doctors comes back into my room and tells me that I was pregnant. he said something else about seeing my OBGYN and other stuff that I couldn’t hear because I was in total shock. My mom was so mad at me that she didn’t say anything. When we got home she told my dad and they made me call BJ over. When he got there they started yelling at us and asking how we planned to take care of a baby and why we had been so stupid. BJ was pissed, saying that I had done something to trap him and then he got into a huge argument with my dad. I decided that I was keeping the baby because it was the right thing to do. When I went to talk to B at school the next week, he was sitting against the railing on the field with Lana wrapped in his arms! I went crazy and wanted to know what the f#@k was up! He just looked at me like he didn’t even know who I was and says “I’m in high school and you want to play mommy. I’ve got a girlfriend so go find your baby’s daddy or something!” So now I’m going to be raising my baby on my own and I have to get a DNA test to prove that BJ is the dad. Great way to start Junior year!