Ever looking Ray’s way was the biggest mistake of my life. I was at a family party and he had come with one of my cousin’s friends. We were all hanging out and drinking and that night was so much fun. We all ended up walking to the hilltop so that we could look at the city lights at night. Ray and I talked a little and he asked for my number. He called me first thing the next morning wanting to hang out that day. I thought he was cute and funny. We started spending a lot of time together and became boyfriend and girlfriend a couple weeks after. Ray was 6 months younger than me (I was 16) and a year behind in school, but that didn’t bother me because age doesn’t matter. We fell in love hard. We were together everyday after school and would spend the entire weekends together. We was in real true love he was my heart. Nothing else mattered like I wasn’t impressed by other guys at all because I was with him.
The summer before my junior year I started feeling weird. It was like I was off or something and couldn’t keep the hormones under control. I got a stomach virus really bad and was in so much pain and sick. I couldn’t eat anything at all for a few days. I felt like I was going to pass out all the time so my mom took me to the hospital. I wanted to get medicine to help me feel better but they made me do tests first. The doctor and the nurse came in and told me that my pregnancy test came back positive. I was shocked. My mom was upset and said that I was being irresponsible and stupid. I couldn’t cry or anything I was just numb. I was just about to be a junior and now I was pregnant. The doctor asked me a bunch of questions that I really couldn’t answer about my last period and stuff. They sent me to my Gyno and she said that I was 13 weeks pregnant! No!
My mom talked to me and asked if I planned on keeping the baby. I said that I thought I was but needed to talk to Ray first. I called him when I got home and told him that I was pregnant. He refused to believe me and thought I was joking. I said that I was serious and asked him to come over. I showed him the ultrasound and all of the stuff the doctor gave me. Ray was real quiet and just kept saying ok ok. He told me that he had to leave to help his uncle with something. I told him to call me when he got home. I never heard from him. After 5 days of unanswered calls and texts, I went over to his house. His mom told me that he had left to stay with his aunt and grandmother in Nevada. He had just up and ran off. I told her about the baby and that it was Ray’s. She said that she couldn’t control him but would try to help. When we finally heard from Ray he was saying that I had slept around and that he didn’t think it was his. He said that he had left because I was trying to trap him and he was too young for that. So that was it. He was gone for good because he didn’t want to have to grow up. Now I’m playing mom and dad to our son who Ray still denies.